Monday, January 5, 2009

Where I've Been

If anyone out there is wondering where I've been, the answer is long and complicated or short and easy, depending on how you want to look at it.

The short and easy answer is that my one-year-old has been in such a state with ear infections that he hadn't gained a full pound since his six-month checkup. He doesn't sleep, he doesn't really eat, and he cries. ALOT. Throw in vomit and other messy bodily functions brought on by antibiotics and you have a recipe for an unhappy baby and an unrested, unhappy family. We did get tubes put in his ears about 3 weeks ago, after several delays due to him being too sick for the surgery. Since then, he has already gained almost 2 pounds and started saying several "words," including "teetee" (kitty,) "mama," and "tay too," an imitation of "thank you" that he seems to think means "you take this and then give it back to me." While he is doing better, he has already had another infection and sleep is still an issue. We have a long road in front of us to get him to unlearn the bad habits that came with all the drama, but there's a light at the end of this tunnel, and I'm glad and thankful to be getting back to our family routine with the start of the new year.

The long and complicated is....well, more complicated. I am neurotic about schedules. I need structure and goals to feel "right," but it is a self-defeating cylce. Once I start feeling "not right," my tendency is to want to "give myself a break," and let go of some of my commitments. Then I get behind on my plans and goals, see where this is going. Like everyone else on the planet, I am my own worst enemy.

So what is the plan? Resolved: I will try to write an entry in this blog once a week, hopefully on the same day each week, but not about a set amount of sripture. I will cover whatever my study and quiet time has been on that week. Don't worry, though. It will still probably be some sort of sequential path through the New Testament because that is still where I am reading on my own.

I am also going to get back to writing in my other blog on a weekly basis, so you can find me there, too.

Happy New Year!